I decided if... ( A BIG IF) I go to New Orleans next week to hang with Brian, I
would may at some point tell him about my previous crush on him, despite his slutbucket, male whore-ish ways. I didn't have a crush on him because he's a slutbucket &
I want(ed) to test the one eyed monster in his pants. I had (key word: HAD) a crush on him because of conversations we had. I had a crush on him because he pushed me to run when I was ready to quit when he was my work-out buddy. I had a crush on him because he's all about self improvement and happiness. I had a crush on him because he was about educating self and learning about every religion and everything, whether it's a conflicting belief or not. I had a crush on him because when I called on him in the fall to help me at an event, he came through for me.
Mr. Henry's trifling ass, whom I've known 8/9 years longer than Brian never called back. I had a crush on him because of the way his eyes lit up when he talked about his daughter, and the patience he exhibited no matter how many times she called him "Daddy" when she was here, but didn't have a follow-up sentence. I had a crush on him because he accepted my, drunken dancing on the stage
almost nude ways and didn't judge me in Jamaica. I had a crush on him because he slept next to me when I was ten sheets to the wind, naked
and horny, and "respected" me. I had a crush on him because he talked up my fabulous-ness to other people in front of and behind my back.
I had a crush on him because when I called him at 2:30 am yesterday, he hopped on his motorcycle and came to the rescue, despite the fact that a best friend who is now obsolete, never even called me back this weekend in regards to me being locked out, with no place to go, and having something to do that was majorly important on Sunday.
I had a crush on him because of our similar backgrounds and when I told him that a family member close to me has a gambling problem and I cleared my 401K for them, he was understanding and supportive and offered words of support and wisdom. Despite his slutbucket, male-whore-ish ways, Brian is a good dude. I feel comfortable and safe around him. Even when I was rubbing his back while he was throwing up his Corona's & Long Islands from the night, before I tucked him in...that he was a good friend.
Yea, I'm seriously thinking about telling him about my former crush on him. But I will probably sober up
chicken out and keep it to myself for eternity.In Other News Not Related To Dating:
I haven't talked to P.A.T.T. since Saturday. She (the first female) earned a spot in the Do Not Answer slot in the silver bullet (my cell phone). Here's the story. As I said before earlier, I was in a rush and locked myself out my apartment on Saturday afternoon. As soon as I realized my absentminded-ness caused me to be
homeless not able to get into my place, I called and texted P.A.T.T. because she had my spare key (which I usually keep in my truck, because of scenarios like this). In anycase, I told her I was headed to Brian's BBQ (invited her) and that I was cool for the time being, but to let me know where she would be so we could meet-up. The
biatch, girl that I thought was one of my BFF's, responded back and said ok. After a few hours at Brian's place, I text'd to see where she was at. She was 30 minutes away from D.C. but she said didn't have the key with her. She said she probably left it at her Dad's place or in the car of
a married man whom I suspect she use to tango with in the past a friend's and that she would try to contact him. A few hours later I text/call for an update on her location and the location of the key to my
love shack beloved apartment, and she then responded that she was in Baltimore and she apparently couldn't get in touch with said friend.
Side Note: Not a likely story since her & said friend seemed to be attached at the hip for the last few weeks, the way Brian and I have been. I digress.
Through-out of these calls and s.o.s messages, I made it be known that I HAD SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO DO ON SUNDAY, and that I needed to get into my place.
Long story short, she never got me my key, which resulted in me sleeping on Brian's couch and calling the
former Russian Mafia locksmith guy to drill a hole in my lock. 48+ hours later, still no word, no call to see if I was ok, if I got in,
if I pissed on myself & needed a shower. Nothing. So she's in "the box" with a lid on it.
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well at least you have friends to call. i would have called the locksmith first. i can rely on family too in most cases but not really. anyways, i don't think she just flaked like that but you never know what was going on with her and at this point she probably knows you are mad and backing away.
i would like brian too if i were you after all that. plus he's a guy that doesn't have you in his hoe or get the booty category. nice nice. maybe he is waiting on you to say something. idk lol that's a tough call.
Sis, you need to do like I do and hide a key in the dirt in front of the house.
I go outside of the house for stuff on occasion and just out of habit lock the door.
With me living far from everyone (as they say) the key is right there and I can let myself back in.
@ MLM - all she had to do was say so. And follow-up with me, rather than being MIA. I told her that was my only spare & I needed to get in. I could find better ways to spend $139.00, than dropping it on a lockssmith.
@ Shawn - I generally never had a problem, cause I used to keep the extra set in my truck & my truck had a keypad on it. I gave her that set last week to get something out of my apartment & deliver it. She never gave it back to me. My neighborhood is in DC, and I'm not leaving a key outside, my neighbors are nosey and just as I am burying it, I'm sure someone would see me and scoop it up when I'm not looking... I'll be making copies & leaving one at work & one in my truck...
Well sis, you know this is not the first time P.A.T.T. has let you down and even if she was having problems which I'm sure she wasn't she could have called/texted and said something. Gave you his number or something. And even if she wasn't able to make it that night she could have called the next day to see what she could do. AND she still hasn't called. It pisses me off and it didn't happen to me...
But anyway
I understand the Brian issue. If I spent that much time with a man I would be head over heels....literally LOL. I think you met him at the wrong time. I would share my feelings with him only if you think it wouldn't effect your friendship because as you can see its hard to find friends that have your back.
P.O.W.
Had a crush? That's a lot of "crush" reading for a "had."
(Sigh.) Seems like I'll never catch up. It's like a damn soap opera around here! Who is this man? Did y'all actually date? And do you have personal experience with his nickname, resulting in the reason for the "had"?
I mean, besides the nickname, he seems like good crush material...
I only have one female friend and I can't say I trust her to come to help me, lol, sad I know. But I also keep a spare key to everything in my truck, but I have a garage so I'm usually cool. Sorry you had to add your girl to the DNA list... I think the only chick on mine is the Mary Kay lady lol!
And I agree with Nelia, that crush list is a lil long to be in the past, but I understand. If he's a true friend then tell him, he'll still be your friend afterwards.
We need a chat room for DC bloggers and it needs to happen ASAP, because I have gotten at least 5 or 6 messages asking me if I read DC Divas blog today. Everyone's got an opinion.
Honestly, to be real, the only reason this is a crush is because you haven't gone forward with Brian, other than that, definitely sounds like love talk to me.
I fear that if you did act on this crush, you might be able to figure out if you really feel that way about him or not.
i agree with the above posts. i think you still might have a crush on brian.
Ok, I took this from MLM - There's a CHAT BOX on the side to get forum started Dr. J. Use it freely, tell others to use it, get the convo started!
I think you are in love with Brian. And that's okay. Most good relationships blossom out of friendships.
Also, unless PATT has let you down in other ways in the past, I don't think you should be so hard on her. Being locked out of your house and having to pay for a locksmith does suck, but ultimately it was your fault, not hers.
Also, if you are still looking for a new male friend to hang out with, you should test out Dr. J.
Wow, for someone who is your BFF, that was a BOGUS move. We all know the feeling of helplessness and it is NOT cool. Its sad, even. I wouldn't want my friend feeling like that, which is major when locked out of your own home.
Anyhow, wow, the stuff about Brian was deep. And maybe I'm a romantic but the fact that he jumps at the chance to help signals the "love" radar. Ok, maybe that's too strong of a word to use when I don't know your completely situation. But, he does seem to care a lot. That's usually one of the major ways you know. Someone who gives you their time...which is precious to a lot of folks. I mean, he stops what he is doing to help you. And he hasn't known you as long as other folks who don't. That really says something.
Oh, and co-signing the other folks up there. You HAVE a crush on Brian. Don't tell me writing this post didn't bring back all those feelings to the surface. I can picture your swoon as you're typing. LMAO. Aw.
@ Elle - Thanks for stopping by. I agree re the key, ultimately it was my fault I was locked out. I would have met her where-ever had she gotten back to me. There's no point in giving someone your extra key if they can't get it to you in "emergency" situations. I think the thing that bothered me the most about it, was she never called to make sure I was ok, got in, got to my event ok the next day with needed items. What if I didn't have my credit card or the $$$ to drop at the drop of a dime. What if it was more expensive? What if I didn't have a safe place to sleep. As a BFF, if it was the other way around, I would have made sure she was ok, even the following day. This isn't the first time PATT has been a disappointment. I'm at a point in my life where I need people around me that I can trust and depend on. People who, even if they can't come through, will check on me to make sure I'm ok, and not laying in the ditch somewhere on the side of the road.
As far as a new buddy goes...Dr. J, know's most of my little dirty secrets, LOL.... hmmmm
Cheekie - I knew he was up cause I had dropped him off at home. But I just think overall if it's in his power to do something, he would for any of his friends. I don't want him to seem like he's perfect, cause he's not, but in the short time I've known him compared to other friends I feel he's more trust-worthy
Oh you know my feelings on Brian...and I don't believe the had...it's just tooooooo much for a had. Come on now Diva I gonna give you some Wander advice step out on faith. That's all I'm gonna say about that.
Now WTF kinda move did PATT just pull. Ugh she def deserves the DNA list for real. Come on now even if the hooker (sorry to talk about your girl) was busy (don't believe it) a GOOD friend would want to make sure you were ok and safe. You don't need friends like that, I say ditch the b*tch excuse my hostile language.
Lmao @ "no call to see if I was ok, if I got in, if I pissed on myself & needed a shower. Nothing."
I love your blog and by now she definately should have called to see if you were ok or not.
Welcome Juicy, it's late and I'm sobering up...
Updates tomorroe on everything....everything
I know this is mad late, and I'm not a woman, but i've seen a female friend leave another female out to there hanging before.. it's usually a sign that they're jealous of whatever you got goin, and they wanna see you fail at it: my guess, you and dude. Keep that broad voted off the island ma.
Hey jay mitch. Welcome.
Me & PATT haven't really been the same type of friends we were before the incident. I think there's a time for everything & maybe we weren't meant to be BFF's forever.
I'm cool though on it.
Thanks for the comment, you need to stop by more often!!!!
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