I am no longer a functioning alcoholic...
Yep, that’s right. Today makes day 27 of no vodka, no wine, beer, or other adult beverages. The shakes have subsided, and I can actually sleep throughout the night. (#noinsomnia) The month of January I consumed so much alcohol I became immune. Literally. Which made me think, maybe I had a borderline drinking problem. Aside from consuming ungodly amounts of wine and vodka shots without getting a slight buzz, I had an epiphany; I do not want to look 59, when I am 40, the extra calories negate my workouts, and my tolerance was so high, that I was basically wasting money on the good stuff.
Don’t get me wrong, I miss vodka, and I miss my nightly glass of Shiraz, but now it’s kind of a mind over matter thing. Like can I really go without alcohol for 40 days, 40 nights? I am close. I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
In other news, this weekend I went out with one of the schoolboys Donny. It was ok, well it wasn’t super exciting or anything. I mean, he threw me off when he decided he wanted to light up (aka smoke mary jane) before our “date”. I mean, I don’t judge, but you mean to tell me it’s 1pm in the afternoon, we are in broad daylight where everyone can see, and you pull out a pipe and greenery because you “need a buzz”. So that was kinda strike #1 in that it turned me off.
Yes, I’ve dated guys in the past that have lit-up, hell Klein even shot-gunned me, but that was after the pleasantries, well into our “relationship” in the privacy of our home. Not in the middle of the day, steps away from cops, children and old people. And I know I can’t talk, because I used to partake in vodka, like it was iced water. But I wasn’t that bad. Like I didn’t have a pint hidden in the console of my car. I only took my flask out for special occasions at nighttime, unless I was on vacation...so I could not really understand his need to light up during brunch hours, not to mention, I think we were parked near one of those Big Brother cameras...
So, after the “date” he decides he wants to go to the library to study. I’m like well, I do need to see if they have this book for class. Before we get there, we stop and get food. So we get there, they don’t have the book. I decide to leave.
(Side Note: I studied all week, and just came off a stressful week of work and school, so I really didn’t want to study anyways. End Side Note)
Donny: well can’t you read some other books
Me: no, we have specific books
Donny: well you can study some other stuff
Me: hmmm, nope, I pretty have everything I need except that book, and all of my stuff is at home, so it’s pointless for me to stay
Donny: well what are you going to do?
Me: go home.
We hug. I leave. That’s It.
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16 comments:
you sure it wasn't my brother you went out with? sounds like something he would do. lol
oh and congrats on 27 days sober.
Hey hey. Nice to see all is good and well sans alcohol (and in general). Here in Vancouver (BC), people smoke bud like cigarettes...as in, anytime, day or night and anywhere ;p
Hey hey. Nice to see all is good and well sans alcohol (and in general). Here in Vancouver (BC), people smoke bud like cigarettes...as in, anytime, day or night and anywhere ;p
@ Tunde - Oh gosh! I know you wouldn't do that would you?????!!!!!
28 days going hard!
@MzMami - Thanks! Damn, I'd be high off contact everyday in Vancouver! How are you? I so need to try to catch up with everyone...
28 days? h#ll to the naw. maybe 14 and that's only if i can still drink beer.
No! Tunde, I was talking about the 4:20 thing...I know you're an alcoholic!
i mean i've indulged. but i would never do that in public. in fact i can't even remember the last time i did period.
Way to go with the alcohol sabbatical! I'm giving up alcohol and all potatoes for Lent. Wish me luck!
@ Tunde - yeah, that was my main thing. it was in Public, on a date, in broad daylight
@Diva - girl thanks! I really needed one Sunday...but it's all good
On a side-note I talked to Brian this weekend (I know) he's impressed and said he may do the same thing
@ Diva - PS, why potatoes? Are you gonna include pasta, rice and bread??? Good luck!
Havent read your blog in a while. I still see you're up to the same BS.
You should really get some commitment in your life. Almost 40 and still going on random "dates".
@ Anon - I'm not almost 40, no where near 40, thank you very much.
Congratulations on your sobriety, I'm happy to "hear" from you again as well, been a long time. I'm so proud of you taking positive steps that are best for you. :-)
Congratulations on your sobriety! I was glad to "hear" from you again, it's been a long time. I'm so pleased to hear that you're making positive strides in your life, doing what you think is best for you. :-)
@ Scarlett - Thanks. I appreciate it.
Sooooo, everyone I made it to 40 days without the hard-stuff
Interesting post. I just chose to walk away from someone i really like because i found out they're into pot. Actually, it was getting blown off during a fon conversation to get high with his buddies. Hard to do but there comes a time when a woman knows what she wants. I KNOW i don't have the time nor energy to date a pothead. Med school deserves that time and energy. Hope you're still sober. Nice blog, from a fellow diva.
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